Family Matters...

Grandpa is in the hospital, just got a pacemaker. That and a handful of more things are going wrong with his body. Liver, internal bleeding... ect.
Grandpa got one pacemaker, but it wasn't working right. It was making his BP really low and he kept fainting and nodding in and out. So they just put in a temporary pacemaker... I don't know what that is or what that means.. But in the morning they need to put in another (non temporary) pacemaker.
He is in the intensive care unit.. I don't know what to do.. I'm 500 miles away. I'm not close with my grandpa. I don't like his out look on a lot of things. We've never really got along. And the fact that he has hurt my mom emotionally makes me so, so, so mad, i can't even explain it.. And if i could explain it, i sure as shit wouldn't tell people over a blog.

It's kinda weird how one bad thing can make you wish you cared more about someone.

It's 2:30 in the morning and all my friends are asleep and i wanted to tell someone whats going on so i don't feel so alone. I bet no one will even read this. Ha... it's the thought that counts i suppose.