i am...

scared of heroin.
it has taken two people that i know from this world.

• According to Drug Abuse Warning Network, or DAWN, heroin and morphine accounted for 51% of drug deaths ruled accidental or unexpected in 1999.
• Heroin is a highly addictive drug, and its use is a serious problem in America. Current estimates suggest that nearly 600,000 people need treatment for heroin addiction
• In 2000, as part of DAWN's year-end emergency data report, heroin related emergency room visits increased 15% from the last year.

May 4th 2010 ♥ Nick
May 19th 2008 ♥ Eric

Sometimes

I wish I could tell people what is really going on with me.
Why i'm so distant, why i hurt.
I wish the people that don't like me and talk shit about me,
would be nonjudgemental for a second.
Know what i'v been through.
But instead i'm pushed around and am a joke.
And who wants to live a life like that.......

All You Have To Do Is Look AROUND

All You Have To Do Is Look UP

Stepping Stones.

like things are okay. They could be better they could be worse.
College; i'm not diggin' it. I just don't feel like i fit into the specific school that i am at. The teachers seem like they don't know whats going on. The kids aren't nice. 

They are somewhat creepy. I feel like i'm not getting the full college experience, i don't live in a dorm. I don't like my classes. I haven't made any friends. 
I want to go travel. I would like to see the world. learn how to do things that i want to do. I would like to be knowledgeable of the world. Staying in Utah doesn't seem like the right thing for me. When i'm young i don't want to settle down i want to get up and do things. Fun things. Like i want to move around to new places. I just want to live. I want to live my life. I want to love my life. 

Random Things.

1. What time did you get up this morning?


10:30 am 


2. How do you like your steak?


medium rare


3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?


umm... i can't even remember. i'd love to go see a movie though. 



4. What is your favorite tv show?


Jersey Shore, South Park, and Dogs 101



5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?

Aruba or Dominica 


6. What did you have for breakfast?


I don't usually eat breakfast. 



7. What is your favorite cuisine?


Anything having to do with pasta

.

8. What foods do you dislike?


Beats, rutabaga, icky things.  



9. Favorite Place to Eat?


Noodles and Company, and Del Taco.



10. Favorite dressing?


Umm... the thing that is on Cesar Salad. 



11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?


2001 VW Jetta



12. What are your favorite clothes?


Jeans. 



13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?


Europe. 


14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?


depends on my day. 



15. Where would you want to retire?


Somewhere that i love. 



16. Favorite time of day?


I think... after dinner. 



17. Where were you born?


Marin County California. 



18. What is your favorite sport to watch?


I'm not too sure. 



19. Bird watcher?


I think some are really pretty looking. 



23. Are you a morning person or a night person?


Total night person. 


24. Pets?


Yes, two. Missing the Golden Retriever.



25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?


I don't like sharing. 



26. What did you want to be when you were little?


A vet! Just like now :) 



27. What is your best childhood memory?


My first time rock climbing. 



28. Are you a cat or dog person?


DOG DOG DOG DOG. 



29. Always wear your seat belt?


:\ i have been more and more. 



30. Ever been in a car accident?


Never 



31. Any pet peeves?

Dirt under finger nails. 



32. Favorite pizza topping?


Chicken and Garlic and yummy goodness! 


33. Favorite Flower?


A lady slipper. 


34. Favorite ice cream?


Oh there are so many... 



35. Favorite fast food restaurant?


T Bell yo. 



36. How many times did you fail your driver's test?


Not at all. I passed with flying colors. 



37. From whom did you get your last email?


Probably something that was spam. 


38. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?


Jeeze, i dont even want to think about that. 

Just thinking that is bad karma. 


39. Do anything spontaneous lately?


No. im not in a spontaneous mood lately. 



40. Like your job?


My job is alright. i NEED a second job... 


41. Broccoli?


Steamed :) 


42. What was your favorite vacation?


Going to Curacao, Aruba, Dominica, and St. Thomas. 

Best Vacation of my life. 

I Miss My Mom

: ( 
really really bad.
i don't like this whole situation.
it makes me sad, i just want you to come home.

Meat Is Not Just For Eating Anymore!

When i was watching the VMA'S this past sunday i was thinking when Lady Gaga walked up on stage,
'God damn she wears so ugly shit. But at least she isn't wearing a trash bag like Kesha.'
Little did i know that she was sporting a meat dress. When i found this out... Kesha's Home Depot trash bag seemed so mild.
So lets analyze this wonderful meat-a-lisous picture.
The first thing that stands out to me is her meat hat/fedora/cap/beret. Im going to be completely honest here... i would never put a chunk of raw meat on my head. Even as a joke, i would never do it.
Next up would be the dress. I am the type of person that likes to look up things. I saw on a website that this dress was about 40 pounds. That is like a baby cow. And she was wearing a corset under that awesome meat thing. But other then that, the meat is touching her skin. Meat is cold and gross. But once again... like the hat/fedora/cap/beret, that would be a big NO.
You can't really see it in this picture but she has a mean clutch. I don't even want to get into that. But she added a broach to it to make it look classy...
The shoes. The shoes. THE SHOES. Guess what?! they are meat. They are wrapped in butcher twine to make the meat stay on the original shoe. I think i would hot glue those bad bitches onto that shoe.
This picture is kind of making me sick.

When i think of wearing meat some questions come to mind and one statement...
1. How did she not have blood all over her?
2. Would she have to be refrigerated?
3. How did she not stink?
4. What would you do with this after you wore it? Put it on the grill?

PETA must hate this girl. 

Skype

i got a skype.
because that is what cool college kids are doing these days.
and right when i log on and start adding people, this random person named 'lesbian' started talking/chatting to me.
she asked me if i was a lesbian, i said no.
she asked me how old i was, i said 5.
she said, "i like 5 year old..."
the second she said that.. i blocked her.
just because in the movies they can track you from your computer and find out where you live and junk, and i didn't want to get killed in the middle of the night by some lesbian that likes 5 year olds.
the end.

i ♥ postsecret

p.s. her hair does look like shit.

i think my goal today is to go climb a tree.
thank you.

Corona Comercial?

Things I Don't Understand

• People and why they do stupid things
• Why my back hurts all the time
• MTV is so addicting, same with Oxygen
• Utah's weather is so bipolar it needs medication
• Why people get corn rows with beads... 
• The government
• Why it costs money to go to school in the US of A but not in the UK/over sea's
• Why do dogs sniff each others asses? 
• Marry a stranger in Vagas
• Why my car is so damn awesome!
• Lisssps
• Baby's spitting up
• Garlic seeping out your pores
• Why i am doing this list? 

NOW

im going to watch jersey shore. peeeace

Kitty Named Faith

My boyfriend and I were driving and there was a guy standing in the middle of the road. We were confused but then saw that there was a cat laying in the road. 

A four month old kitten had been hit by a car. We pulled over to help. 

When we went over the cat was hyperventilating. 

By that time someone else had pulled over and started to help she got a blanket and wrapped the kitty up. 

We moved her from out of the middle of the road to the sidewalk. 

Then we kept calling vet clinics that were open 24/7 we found on in sandy. 

Thats really far away from where we first were with the cat.

We could tell that the cat couldn't move its back legs.

Long story short... We had to get the cat euthanized because we didn't want it to suffer. 

:(

Uintahs

Thief!

At 4 a.m. in the wee hours of the morning i was woken up by a car alarm.
At first i thought it was my car, and i would cry if that car got a dent on it.
So i ran outside with both my dogs because they would cause bodily harm to any person trying to break into my car.
I looked all around my car and didn't see anything abnormal. So i looked around my mothers car too.
I didn't see anything.
But i looked in the street and the girl that lives in my basement, her drivers side window was broken.
I got kinda close and my dog followed me and lazily meanders through the broken glass, stupid bitch, i am telling her to come to me not thinking she would walk through the glass AGAIN. But i was highly wrong. She did it again and in the process i stepped in glass also. So i put her inside while my other dog was taking a dump in my neighbors yard. When i was inside woke my roommate up, blah blah blah, and she came out and looked in car and figured out they stole............... her CD's.
Compact Disc's.
WTF.
Haha, i thought it was kinda funny.
But sad for the window.

In Class Today

In my human behavior class we talk about... well... human behavior. And we were talking about mental illnesses and if medication can or cannot help. In my experience of being in psychology and sociology, people tend to be extremely out spoken and extroverted. Not to mention kinda off the rocker a little bit. I also think there is a new person in that class every day, but they are only there for one day. ?? weird. yeah. ANYWAYS.... So we were talking about how medication can help things and if you don't want to take medication you can heal yourself by being positive. But all of a sudden this girl interrupts and says, "Well i have Schizophrenia and if i didn't take my meds... i'd go crazy and want to kill things."

Schizophrenia (pronounced /ˌskɪtsɵˈfrɛniə/ or /ˌskɪtsɵˈfriːniə/) is a serious mental illness characterized by a disintegration of the process of thinking and of emotional responsiveness.^[1] It most commonly manifests as auditory hallucinations, paranoid or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech and thinking with significant social or occupational dysfunction.

Kinda scary? I think so. Personally i think that Schizophrenia is vey interesting... Because it shows how powerful and deceiving the human brain can be. But if i had it (which i don't) i am pretty sure i would not tell a class room full of 30 people. If she is okay with people knowing i guess that is good. I wouldn't be down with people thinking i belong on shutter island. Just sayin'. Because that is how a hand full of people see mental disorders due to the media and Brittany Spears. 

But that is my favorite class. So i think i can live in a classroom for 50 minutes with a bunch of colorful people.

College

is probably one of the most laid back, stressful things i have ever experienced. 


PROBLEM 
#1 apparently i'm a non resident and i have lived in this state for 17 years.
#2 all my books are on back order... no homework for me because i have no idea what we are doing text wise.
#3 FASFA = bullshit. 
#4 financial aide is backed up for 6 weeks. i have to pay for my classes in september. if you didn't know... its the 30th of august. 
#5 i swear to god, NO ONE at that school is helpful. they keep leading me in a circle. wow thanks administrative people for administering me wrong information. kudos to you. 

i love college.

really, really!

Numaro Uno

Well, im finally fitting into the blogging world...
I think that I just am going to make this a picture blog.
But who knows.
I don't know if i am even going to be consistent with this or if people are even going to look at it..
but ohh well.
:)
Lets see where this takes us shall we?